powerful stuff

there is a dessert at one of our favorite restaurants called "powerful stuff". it's an ice cream pie that the menu says is "enough for two". those of you who know me well will be shocked to hear that i have never actually eaten this dessert, but i've seen it and it looks amazing. i was reminded of it last night as i was falling asleep.

we were just blessed with some furniture for our future nursery. it's exactly what i was wanting and it was super cheap. it's a little weird having nursery furniture with no idea of when we will have a baby, but we are learning over and over again that God's ways are not our ways. i was compelled last night to sit in the room that our baby will sleep in one day and begin praying for this baby, for it's birth mother and for her struggles. surrounded by the pieces of our baby's crib, the dresser that will hold her clothes, the bookshelf my father built when i was a child that will hold her books...it was all very humbling. there is so much going on right now that we can't see. God is working in ways we may never know. i don't know if our baby has even been given life yet, but we are praying for her all the same. her birth mother is especially on my heart right now. i pray she will have the courage to choose life for our baby, and that if she doesn't know Jesus, that she will come to experience a relationship with Him. i am praying that He will comfort her through the difficulties that lie ahead for her. jeremy was there praying with me and it was very evident to me that God was there with us. i know without a doubt that He is working to bring about whatever is best for us.

after our prayer, we went to bed and i laid there for some time still thinking about it all. the only thing that came to mind to be able to express what i was feeling was "powerful stuff". this work that God is doing in our hearts and our lives, that i could already love a baby i have never seen...it's powerful stuff! my God is a powerful God! whatever His plan, whatever His will, i am learning to try to see it and to trust it when i can't. and just like that dessert i've never tasted, i know this God i serve, the Creator of all of this powerful stuff...He's enough for two. He's enough for us.