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Thursday, May 26, 2011

lords a'leaping

i love words. and i love when they come together to show me something special, something meaningful. they are just simple, just some letters on a page, but arranged by the hands of God, they have such power.

a friend gave me a plaque the other day that said "leap fearlessly". i loved the encouragement that that gave me in light of all we have been through and our current joy. when i think about the word "leap", i think of the commitment that takes. a jump can be small, easy, not a big deal. but leaping...that takes courage. i picture a dancer leaping beautifully across a stage, legs outstretched with no fear for how she will land, or a climber making a daring leap across a huge crevice in the rocks...all of that takes some big-time faith! to do it fearlessly...well that's just nearly impossible.

but for us, our fertility treatments were somewhat of a leap of faith. believing that God would perform a miracle for us has taken more of a leap than i ever thought possible. even now...watching that tiny baby in my belly...i believe with my whole heart that this baby will be healthy and i am daring to trust that we will even manage to make it to full-term. i am not fearless...but my God is. and He's the One who has given us this miracle. He is the One who is molding this baby, cell by cell, knowing full well what the outcome will be. He is the One, holding my hand through the fear, through the doubt, through the prayers, through the praise. so leaping isn't quite so difficult. i have a Dance Partner, a strong Climbing Rope, and someone on the other side of the crevice saying "you can do it. I am here."

a couple of days after my friend gave me the plaque, my grandmother and i were talking about our ultrasound results. she mentioned a story from Luke about a baby "leaping" in his mother's womb. she said hearing me talk about our little one moving from uterus to uterus made her think of that scripture. we laughed about it and later the Holy Spirit started speaking to me about leaping.

my mom found the scripture my grandmother was referring to, Luke 1:44-45. in this chapter, mary, the mother of Jesus, goes to tell her good friend elizabeth, that she is pregnant with the Son of God. elizabeth is pregnant with john at the time and is shocked and overjoyed by mary's news. when mary tells elizabeth her news, scripture says that elizabeth said, "as soon as I heard the sound of your greeting, the child in my womb leapt for joy. and blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her by the Lord."

not only do we have leaping here, but we have blessings given to a woman who believed on the promises of God, blessings for a woman who leaped. that doesn't always describe me, but i am blessed beyond measure, and i am thankful for the lessons the Lord has taught me in how to trust Him and how to believe in His faithfulness. regardless of our circumstances, He is faithful and everything He does is for our good.

His love is strong, His step is sure, and He will never leave me or my baby. so i am going to keep leaping. i may even point my toes when i do it.

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